Friday, May 31, 2013

Laughter from others - by Dylan Novakowski

Can't believe how broken and upset I feel. I am one of Gods children He made me new. 
I just got first hand last night that Christians are outsiders and get mocked at in this world. My friend bought me coffee tonight and he bought tents for camp day to support Tim Hortons kids camp.  He gave me a couple. So I thought in my mind I will put scripture on them. So on one I put Romans 1:16 and the other John 3:16. Well I got laughed at by the workers and they thought it was funny laughing and saying "ok holy one." Well that did not sit with me well at all and I did not say anything to them. But my friend said that was cool what I did and said "you know it is true that you are meant to preach the word and do missions and that was a good thing what you did."   I said thanks not realizing what he said and I have been thinking on it that at least the message was sent and they realized what scripture it was so I hope it sinks in and God can use it. God does use crooked sticks to make straight lines. 

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Romans 12- Dylan Novakowski

The meaning of Romans 12 - Dylan Novakowski

Believers are to dedicate themselves to God. (1,2) To be humble, and faithfull to use their spiritual gifts, in their respective stations. (3-8) Exhortations to various duties. (9-16) And to peaceable conduct towards all men, with forbearance and benevolence. (17-21)
"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."

It's saying to be separate from this world. When you accept Jesus Christ into your heart you should think differently, you should think godly things. The more you read the Bible the more you will be like Christ..
He sent Us out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal the sick. For such as time as this. Luke 9:2 NKJV)
When did weChristians think it was ok to keep the Word for ourselves?  Just think who was the one that brought you to Christ? For me it was PS. Jamie and I still don't know what word brought me to Christ. All I know is that it's our duty to share the word it's our job. When we got Saved are life changed for the better not for worse. Christ never said to keep it a secret He said spread the Good news that Christ is King and He came to SAVE US Amen. There's just as much Christ blood on our hands as the next person. 
It goes back to Romans 1:16
For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek. 

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Never forced. Natural.

This morning we have learned of the sounds of nebulas, had a toad come visit and let our nine month old baby girl experience dew on her toes for the first time. We were up since six.  We made the most of each opportunity in between getting ready for school and tidying up dirty plates.  Spring always brings me back to the roots of how amazing our Creator is.  As the earth fills with the roots of new saplings and flowers my roots dig deeper into Christ.  His love nourishes me and replenishes my soul.  Living within Christ, such a gift and so much thankfulness.  I want to sink deeper and deeper into Him.  It happens as His Spirit rains down and replenishes and provides and organically and naturally it happens. Never forced, it's natural. It's what I was created for.  In total awe of God, reflecting perfect Love. I am just bathing in this warm reminder this morning. 

Thursday, March 21, 2013

United we should stand.

Yesterday I quoted pope Francis and apparently this caused a stir. I'm not Catholic and while I don't understand enough about the Catholic faith I know some Catholics who are majorly in love with Jesus so I felt a bit upset when I had opposition to quoting the spiritual leader of the Catholic Church.
I just do not understand the big deal between all us ya know?
I understand there are some major differences but is it not Jesus who is the part we are not supposed to miss? I just feel so heart broken when I hear bashing of any denomination but since the Catholics have been in the spotlight more so lately I have heard and seen so much bad taste from other Christians I felt the need to pour out my heart on it. Jesus wanted a church body united. He didn't die for our denominations. He didn't die so we could be Pentecostal, Catholic, Mennonite, Baptist, etc. He died to unite His children, to be free from our sins and have the strength to keep away from them, and have us be His hands and feet.

There is so much talk lately on how the Catholic Church is flawed but are not every single denomination flawed because we are so split in the first place? What if we all decided to stop looking at the things "they" do wrong and started focusing on the One who is right about us all? It just pains me to hear criticism about one group or another and trust me I have been guilty of it too. I have been in the past very guilty of this. But lately it's unity that I can't get off my mind. Imagine what it would look like!! Imagine if we all took our strengths and battled together against the the enemy which is not the church down the road but Satan and his angels. Imagine!
Anyways , my tiny vent over. I love you all. Carry on.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

When you push through...

Burning sands and hardened wastelands will become pools, shimmering with life;
the thirsty ground will drink deep from refreshing springs.
Abandoned villages where predators once lurked will become grassy playgrounds.

Dry, arid land will turn lush and green. (Isaiah 35:7 the voice)

Things are sprouting in my heart again.
I feel the springs spilling over me, like a damn about to give way.

Since Christmas I have been in a massive funk.  It started to go slow, but got really bad a few weeks into January.  So bad I started to roll my eyes at scripture, roll my eyes at God, Christianity, churches, everything.  I started seeking elsewhere late nights, searching for that feeling once again that I had, that feeling I had with God that was so close and intimate but seemed to dissapear.  I even started a new blog, because I thought my time in Christianity may be over.  There is something about Jesus though, He just does not let go that easy.  Trying to talk to people about it was good, even though some I spoke to did not quite understand what I was going through, and others got it perfectly.  I got really raw, really honest and I think that was good.  Being honest and raw is important.  So important.

Anxiety was at an all time high and I just felt like there was this awful darkness surrounding me.  At first it was like Jesus was not talking to me about anything, but He was still present.  Then it was like He vanished.  The door was shut and I did not want to talk to God at all.  I wanted to run away and not look back.

Everything started to make no sense to me at all, every last detail.  Nothing was right anymore.  It hurt hard.  It hurt bad.  I started to try and figure it out and then God says - Be still...wait-

That is impossible for me. Im like OCD ADD and champion at Google and Wiki.   I kept trying to figure things out.  Again - Be still...wait-

I finally decided to wait.  Finally.  But not until after a few weeks of plugging my ears to the only words I felt He spoke to me in forever.   He was probably like -Good, now I can work!-
No Google, no opinions, no forums, nothing.  I did not look for a group to fit into, a theory to come into agreement with.  I just waited.  And it was brutal.  I am still continuing to be still.  But God has shown me some things.  Huh, fancy that ;)

One night on the way home from knitting with some fantastic ladies I decided all of a sudden that this battle I cannot loose. It was out of the blue, a darn strong determination!!! ROAR!  My faith, my peace, my joy I cant let anything or anyone rob that from me.  I could be still and wait but be positive and still give praise.  My life has a mission on it.  I am part of an amazing missions trip everyday.  I get up, and raise four children, support an amazing man and take care of a home that is to represent the love of God.  Light pushes back darkness and if I pushed light into this awful darkness I was experiencing then things would be more bright.

A few days after that I woke up singing a song about being surrounded.  He is all around me.  I do not know why I started to sing this song.  But it gave me hope.  The thought of being surrounded by God made me smile.  Light cracking through dark holes...

Continuing to be still...

Thursday night a man spoke a word over my husband and I about God being pleased with us and that we had grown a lot.  By just being still... by pushing through with joy and love still... by trusting.

This took a lot of tension off me.  I felt like I was just stumbling through.    The thing is I am starting to realize the more and more we allow God to work in every area, the more it feels less like stumbling.  There are rocky, wooded, scary areas of our life that still emerge, but we have His support and endless love and power to help us through.  Press in HARD because when we do we can see how hard He presses into our lives and plows through these things we see as awful and impossible.

All of a sudden things were just as before the darkness, almost.  There are some things I am still very much struggling with, but words are coming to life to me again, I am starting to understand things again. On top of this I am able to make more sense of all the things I was discovering before I was still.  Things are starting to become much more clear.  I can dance again, I can sing again, I can see goodness in things.

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. (James 4:8)

Oh how true this is!!!

And the thing that totally blew my mind is that I drew close to God just by being STILL and WAITING for Him.  I did not have to go crazy jumping through hoops.  I simply waited.  It was SO easy once I got it and obeyed what He was asking me to do.

I am enjoying it very much.  To be still in His presence, just waiting for those few words He speaks.  They are very few, but the power behind them is massive and give such fullness to my heart.

Push through the darkness.  Push through the bad days with praise on your lips.  I can now fully now like never before promise you it is so very worth it!

Thursday, January 10, 2013


what do you do when you feel God calling you from the center of your being, from the Spirit He deposited in you that there is going to be a "revival" within yourself?  There are curtains of thought, and curtains of doubt and curtains of anger and ego... but in the deep of yourself Holy Spirit stirs and says "watch"
When the most colourful dreams begin to happen as you slumber
When your eight year old daughter has visions. 
When all tradition, all effort to strive against the grain, splintering your being is called to stop.  To be still because its though the Spirit within that love spills forth and makes it effortless even when its hard.  
When things you never thought you would be excited for, make your spirit stir hard and tears flow and you want to dance.  Free.
When you read Jesus in a whole new angle.  Oh sweet Jesus....

How He has called us to an amazing journey.  
Holy Spirit dancing within, guiding, teaching.  

We need only to listen. 

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

The habit of seeking Him

I often read a lot.  Too much maybe?  I read about Bible history, I read my Bible a lot, different denominational views of things, early Christian writings, opinions, thoughts, epiphanies.  I read and search.

I think with myself as well as many others I am just trying to see who I fit in with most.  Sometimes I feel as though some others just don't see Christ the way I do.  I don't always share my views with many, only because I am afraid my view would be wronged by others and they would make my Jesus "small."  I think this is in itself the reason why there are so many different buildings and church denominations to begin with?  Everyone seeking to make their Christ work and sometimes we just don't always agree.

I look back at how I have done this to others.  I feel guilty about it.  I have really come to a place where I really have come to embrace different ways to Christ, however I have never fully found a group of people who see Christ exactly the way I do.  My husband and I in fact have very different ways to approach Christ.  The Bible speaks to us quite differently about the Word of God who is Jesus.  We know one thing for sure, He came for us, to die for us and save us and gives us new life.  He seeks a relationship with us and loves us more than we could ever love Him back.

We attend a church filled with people all from different backgrounds, upbringings all hungry for Christ. I bet we all have different ways of approaching and being in fellowship with our God.

But to approach Him humbly, to say "I don't understand all Your ways.  But I pray that as You guide me with the Holy Spirit that I will come to go deeper into relationship with You."

This is a habit I think so vital.

I do not think He gets upset if our opinions are different, as long as we are seeking Him.

This is a habit I crave.  To get up each morning, and seek Him.  When I wake up in the middle of the night to feed a hungry baby, to listen for Him.  In each step embrace His guidance, not worrying if I am wrong or not.

I have messed up, been confused, and yet, He has always shown me it has to be about Him.  Just being still and knowing its not ever about me.  But Himself in us, His light shining forth.